It’s been quite a week.
If you had told me a year and a half ago that we would soon be calling our daughter by a different name, I would’ve looked at you as if your head were on backwards. If you had told me that not only would her name change, but that gender pronouns would be different also, I probably would’ve distanced myself from our friendship. No kidding.
Fast forward seventeen months and not only do we call our child by a different name and use male pronouns, we had his name legally changed. That’s right. A few days ago, my husband, my (FTM) son and I stood before a Judge in family court and affirmed that we wanted to change Olivia’s name to Hunter. WOW.
Side bar: Going into a courtroom made us all a little anxious but aside from that, I didn’t really anticipate the flood of emotions that was to follow. As we finished our business in the courtroom and moved into the hall, I found myself blinking back tears. I wanted to wrap my arms around Hunter and let the emotion flow freely. That’s what I wanted to do. In reality, I sensed that it wouldn’t be cool for me to hug my teenaged son in public in the courthouse. So, I kept my emotions in check as we filed down the hall to the county clerk’s office to get the certified name change documents. I would not embarrass my son; at least not at that moment.
As we approached the parking lot I made Hunter stop for a hug. And he did. He stood there and let me hug him. I know he was happy with the steps taken thus far. I know he knows that we are on his side; that we are walking this journey along side him.
I hope this step in the process makes things a bit easier for Hunter. Now, I can change his name on a host of official documents and files: school, health care, passport, Driver’s Ed and so on. Health care is a biggie — it is awful to wait for an appointment and have them call out, “Olivia, we’re ready for you.” UGH. Until now, some of our doctor’s have been really great. The orthodontist has been calling him Hunter for quite some time now…also, the pediatrician’s office (most of the time).
We can plan and dream and hope. We wish for dreams to come true. Blow out the candles and “make a wish.” Wish upon a star.There is no crystal ball. We certainly don’t know what the future holds. These last seventeen months have been surprising, unexpected, emotional, difficult and momentous. We have travelled an uphill journey that is far from over.
Where will we be seventeen months from now? Let me check my crystal ball.
I know how you feel. Our court date for gender change was this week. We’re glad it’s done. Life is good.
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Where do you live that you have a court date for gender change?
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We live in Virginia. We had his name changed a couple months ago, we didn’t need a judge for that. But gender change for a minor required us to see a judge. Got it done last Tuesday.
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You are fortunate. Florida requires sex reassignment surgery for gender marker to be changed.
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Xander had top surgery last month. He had very bad body dysmorphia for years but the surgeon wouldn’t do it until he turned 16. We have a blog too called Butterflies Can Be Boys Too.
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You all are very inspiring. You have no idea what it feels like to read about parents like you.
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Thank you!
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Who knows where we will be all we know is with our support and love are kids can become happy and confident. We seem to be on the same journey.
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Claire, so true. That’s all we can hope for.
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That’s great that you were able to do the surgery already. I hope he heals quickly. The emotional toll is very difficult. Kudos for helping your son! I will check out your blog.
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Those of us who are on the same journey as you will agree to that- it has been all of the above- surprising, unexpected, emotional, difficult and momentous!
The legal name change is a biggie! I feel that it really makes such a big difference for them to be able to use their name legally. It’s such validation at a time when they really need it.
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